Not that you care anyway...

We’ll hold each other,
And I’ll turn the bells.

Just asking too many questions and being worried about fuck all.

Not quite hit her level of lunacy yet though..,

This town don’t feel mine
I’m fast to get away

Far

I dressed you in her clothes
So drive me far away

It feels good to know you’re all mine
Now drive me far away

I don’t care where just far away

(Deftones)

Everyday is getting longer at the moment. I don’t even really want to socialise with anyone. I just want Heather.

Life at the moment is just a series of increasingly unproductive episodes in rooms. I go from one room on a five-minute walk to another, then eat sleep and that’s it.

People keep asking where my friends are and there are a couple in Bangor, but I know that I’ll just end up talking work. I’m past arguing about it, past disliking the majority of people I dislike. I’m just ambivalent to them now, knowing that very soon, I’ll be out of here.

I’m reflecting on the last year and feel I’ve achieved little worth celebrating. I may look differently on it in time, but for now, it just doesn’t feel like what I hoped it would be.

I can’t sleep at the moment and tomorrow feels years away.

I don’t want this. I want her.

Night.

Tilling my own grave to keep me level Jam another dragon down the hole Digging to the rhythm and the echo of a solitary siren One that pushes me along and leaves me so

Desperate and Ravenous I’m so weak and powerless over you

Someone feed the monkey while I dig in search of China White as Dracula as I approach the bottom

Desperate and Ravenous I’m so weak and powerless over you

Little angel go away Come again some other day The devil has my ear today I’ll never hear a word you say He promised I would find a little solace And some piece of mind Whatever just as long as I don’t feel so

Desperate and Ravenous I’m so weak and powerless Desperate and Ravenous I’m so weak and powerless over you over you